finally all the drama has ended. time for a fairytale!

last paper!!! seriously man! im beginning t feel old. heh. hahaha. okayy la. havent hit the big 2-0!! hahaha. oh wells. another sem is gone. so quickly, just like that. but im glad ive learnt a lot this sem, emotioanlly+friends+studies, thought its been tiring. karwei asked why im here for the cambodia trip. there were two reasons why i signed myself up for it. and honestly, i didnt expect it. exactly four months ago, i was struggling. and three days from today, it would be exactly five mths ago that it wouldnt have be included in my plans.

its not like i couldnt run and return the shots.
its not cos i have weird music taste, i just happen t listen t all genres except techno.
its not like i cant eat without the 4Cs.
and dont call someone a busybody when he/she obviously cared.

when i was still trying t overcome, i kept hearing and seeing bad stuff that were happening. and people had been telling me "just move on, dont waste time", "jerk", "not worthy of you", etc etc. i may have agreed w them, but it was just cos i had t "convince" and lie t myself. but seriously, i've never regretted it. and i dont believe them because i never think that you are that mean sort of person. after hearing all the negative things, all i wanted is just t embrace my feelings. but when you're tired, you'll let go of everything.

it hurts when you're being treated like some come-and-go. but nobody is to be blamed. sometimes, people change and things go wrong. but when you found out that you deserve better and realised all these while you have done better than that, you'll move on.

i wont cry anymore because i would rather spend my tears on the cambodia kids. i wouldnt be paranoid and suspicious because i would rather care for the people around me. and i wouldnt stay upset and emo anymore because i would rather be out capturing happy moments, doing what i like most.

i dont want t have any phobia just cos ive been hurt once. i dont want t be the girl who keeps crying about the same things. in the future, i will still go for what i want.

theres only one reason left why i want to go cambodia - to learn & to grow. its always good to challenge yourself once in a while. hahaha. last time was what obs?? hahaha. its always good to go back to basics. i know ppl didnt expect me t go cambodia la. rachel zheng was like "YOU ARE THE LAST PERSON I WILL EXPECT TO GO CAMBODIA LA WTH MAN" hahaha!!! seriously man!! =.= im not that xiao jie, spoilt, clean-freak, cannot-tahan-basic-life okayy!! hahaha. lots to do in cambodia man. with karwei and jerina. :D lots to do and learn!!!!

JERINA TAN!

my GFF. Girlfriend-Forever. (higher rank than BFF. HAHAHA.) lecture-partner, go-to-school-together partner, listen-to-all-my-crap (YOU DONT DESERVE THE SHIT HE HAS LEFT) partner, lets-get-high-together friend, always-by-my-side, tennis partner, absolutely no artistic flair, mr-bean's-bear, SUPER BUDDY JERINA TAN. :D I THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH.
lets rock the socks off Cambodia when we get there alright? ;)))))

after cambodia, time t get my CANON DSLR 550D and fisheye lens for my Rainbow. oh yeah!!! im calling my lomo cam Rainbow and my DSLR Cloud. :D rainbow&cloud. heh. then i'll sign up for photography and tennis lessons!! woots!! and work. yepz. work. hopefully pull and bear!! :D

yeah man!! after cambodia, gotta get Cloud. then tennis+world cup+work+community work. yaye man!! EPL's finals on sunday. will be watching in cambodia. heh. GO CHELSEA!!!

DANCE as though no one is watching you.
LOVE as though you have never been hurt before.
SING as though no one can hear you.
LIVE as though heaven is on Earth.